I'm not a big fan of the selfie. However, there are
some moments that make it appropriate. Today's moment wasn't a spectacular one,
nothing of note. It was simple, unplanned and ordinary.
I took the kids to the pool this afternoon. Most
days this is an activity that accomplishes getting us all out of the house and
out into the wide-open field, shaded playground and of course, the cool waters
of the pool. I love it because it necessitates me being devoid of all responsibilities
other than keeping an eye on the kiddos to make sure no one drowns.
That's how I could look at it. However, what it
really means is that I am interacting with all of them. I am not merely
counting heads, but watching dives, judging cannon ball contests, timing races,
doling out snacks, playing gutter ball (a pool invented game that I must say I
am pretty good at considering I have to play with a baby in one arm), and just
being. Conversations are real and attention is undeterred by electronics,
chores or business.
When I snapped this shot, I had just finished
feeding Felicity and she was sweaty and happy. The boys were playing together
in the water and it was the simplicity of the moment I wanted to remember.
Her puckered, perfect lips; the hint of her dimples
on both sides; that pudgy, curious finger pointing at the camera; the way the
sun is peeking through the trees all reminded me that at this time last year, I
was totally second guessing God's decision to add this beauty to our family.
And yet, here we are, so together that the kids can't remember what life was
like before she came.
That smile from me is real. It's a smile that
admits we've made it through some tough times together but things are looking
up. It's a smile that says I'm so very glad you're mine. It's a smile that
concurs that God's ways really are better than mine.
And that sun in the background? That's God saying I told you so.