The Big Question

Too blog or not to blog, that is the question.

How has it happened that I, who got so much out of pouring my heart into this little place, have let it totally go? It haunts me. It makes me crazy because this started with a two-fold purpose: to keep family members in touch and to serve as a pseudo-baby book for my kids (as I have totally let those go too).

It's not that I've run out of things to say. I'm writing all the time. I always have. Old habits die hard.

So what's the big deal?

Life

Life with five kids is busy. Having a baby is good and wonderful and amazing...and time consuming and hard. Life with a baby who's so much younger than the other kids presents some unexpected challenges. One child rises around 6 AM, another goes to bed around 11 PM and there is no break in between. Let's not even get into how having kids in your 40s is WAY different than your 20s or 30s.

Also, social media has provided much quicker ways to keep the family updated. My favorite is Instagram. Take a photo, upload it and presto - everyone sees how fast the baby is growing. I've gotten so good, I can do it with one hand while holding the baby.

They say a picture is worth a thousand words, but it's not the same. You can't read my thoughts in that photo. You have no way of knowing that the beautiful image of that baby is the only moment I caught her smiling that day and I just needed to hold it in time to remind myself that there is a happy kid in there somewhere.

Come September I will have one in high school (WHAT?!!), one entering middle school (seriously?!), two in elementary, and yes, a baby at home. Life will not be slowing down anytime soon. However, for the sake of my kids, I can't just let this go.

Or should I?